Truthfully, I don't really know the answer.
Life is comfortable enough, I am not in pain, my health is good, so no reason to top myself.
As for a reason "Why do I go on"? Nothing, other than why not.
Really, if you cannot answer the question "Why would I not go on?" then you might as well go on.
Life seems pretty meaningless, pretty pointless, not very fulfilling, and yes, that is on me, I must be doing something wrong.
Simply put.
Q: Why do I go on?
A: No idea. The truth is that I could end it now and I would have had a good life, more life than many people more deserving of a good life.
Q: Why would I not go on?
A: The only time would be if I was in physical pain, maybe my body was failing, or my mind was starting to fail. There definitely comes a point where it would be better not to go on than suffer, like we put animals down when they are in pain.
Conclusion
There is a clear answer to "Why would I not go on".
Whilst I am reasonably healthy (physically and mentally), might as well go on! Do go on!
